Borrowed words, borrowed feelings?
He's both right and wrong.
This blog is boring*. My scribbling doesn't qualify as literature, not by a long shot. If you're looking for a good read, a page-turner, insightfull essays, then move right on along, nothing to be seen here. There are other IF blogs that qualify, for sure. Or visit Project Gutenberg.
My blog is therapy. A hybrid between self-help and group therapy.
There is nothing new under the sun to be found here. Thousands of women have gone before me and, sadly, thousands more will probably follow.
In fact, my experience with IF, my emotions, my symptoms, my treatments, are so standard that I'm part of a niche market. And clever marketeers are on to it. Those fertility monitoring microscopes look suspiciously like repackaged kid's chem set microscopes to me.
And don't get me started on the crappy books they churn out.
Good IF books are few and far between. I'm highly sceptical of the
"Miracle Diet to Get Pregnant For Sure" type books. Yeah right.
They can do better than that, how about "Fertility Aromatherapy"? "Homeopathic IF remedies"? "DIY Acupuncture for Hands On Fertility Control" ?
I got a second hand book on IF from a friend who is now 5 months PG after IVF#3. It has medical info - with pictures - the obligatory testimonials, and as a special bonus input from psychologists.
This particular book rubs me the wrong way. Things start to go wrong in the foreword.
This book is not a plea for fertility centers and the treatments they provide. To us it is clear, a smart gal starts her family on time. ...
... This book is a guide for women that - even if they started on time - experience trouble in starting a family.
That one is below the belt. I'll be sure to tell my single girlfriends this gem.
During an HSG exam, an X-ray is taken while contrast fluid is injected into the uterus. ... The exam is done without sedation. Many women do not feel much discomfort, while some suffer cramps similar in nature to menstruation cramping.
Is that sugarcoating I sense? What about the women that suffer agonising pain? Hm? Not worth mentionning?
Irene and Jack have been TTC for a year now. Irene is disappointed that she's not PG yet.
And? Disappointed is a bit tame.
Both are worried it might be their fault.
No. Really. You think? (Rolling of eyes)
What about depression, anger, bitterness, apathy, and all those other lovely emotions that come with IF? Disappointed. Hah.
When it comes to dealing with the emotional baggage that comes with IF, nothing comes close to the blogosphere. It's all there: satire, comedy, tragedy, parody, documentary, mockumentary, sappy story with happy ending, ...
If I had stuck to IF books as my sole source of information, I would still be feeling as depressed today as I was 6 months ago. And today, allthough nothing much has happened on the IF front, I'm feeling a lot better. Not lucky-go-free, but ok. And I attribute this improvement all to you.
Starting this blog has given me the space I need to let it all out. Good, bad and ugly. But it would never have worked without some vocabulary lessons.
The u/s probe? Dild*cam!
The u/s technician? Wand monkey!
Vagi.na? Snatch, cooter, twat, ...
Who can help but smile at those words? Ok, grimace at least. No, really?
So thanks for letting me borrow your words, I needed them. The feelings are all my own, if they were borrowed, I'd have returned them by now. ;-)
* I'm not fishing for compliments here. I'm not thinking of quitting either.