Wednesday, October 17, 2007

On the eve ...

Those of you who have been following here long enough may have noted
that I haven't written the usual survivor's guilt post. The reason is
very simple, I don't consider myself a survivor yet.

On the eve of the Insider's appointed birth day, I feel very much like
I'm a contestant in one of those '80s game shows. Lot's of glitter
and gold on the set, the host has a bad toupée, his lovely assistent
is showing plenty of cleavage and pearly white toothy smile and the
male voice-over Speaks With an Odd IntonatioooooN!!!

I've made it through to the finals and am now standing in front of the
Door With The Prize (the door with the blinking lights around it). But
there's no telling what is behind it (not the washer-dryer combo,
please!). It could be Cloud Number Nine. But it could also be the Deep
Dark Pit of Despair. Most likely it will be some combination of both,
usually with more of the former than of the latter.

The only way to find out is to open the door and walk through. You'll
understand my palms are getting a bit sweaty as I eye the handle.
Though I am nervous (and so is DH) there is also a great sense of
excitement and fortune at having made it this far.


The C-section is supposed to take place tomorrow afternoon, we weren't
given an exact time. I'm pretty sure the hospital doesn't offer
internet yet, so I'll be off line for my entire stay, probably a week.
I will send word to Nina by text message, though don't expect news too
early in the day. We may temporarily forget how to operate one of
those cordless distance talking contraptions.

Thank you for all the well wishes and see you on the other side.

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40 Comments:

At 17 October, 2007 20:54, Blogger JV said...

Good luck! Everything will go fine! So happy for you.

 
At 17 October, 2007 21:38, Blogger PiquantMolly said...

Good luck, Lut! What a grand meeting it will be!

 
At 17 October, 2007 21:44, Blogger Gwenhwyfar said...

Lut, long time reader delurking to send a message of peace and joy. I will keep you and the insider in my thoughts and prayers. This is a very exciting moment and I wish you only the best.

 
At 17 October, 2007 22:10, Blogger Heather said...

Good luck!!

 
At 17 October, 2007 22:11, Blogger MsPrufrock said...

Awww...a lovely post. Good luck! I'll be thinking of you. I can't wait to hear what it's like for you once you are on the other side.

 
At 17 October, 2007 22:26, Blogger Beagle said...

Good Luck! Can't wait to meet your new addition!

 
At 17 October, 2007 23:00, Blogger Anna said...

Oh Lut! Best wished for a smooth, uncomplicated delivery and a healthy mom and baby! Everything is crossed for you and your family! Good luck! :)

 
At 18 October, 2007 01:14, Blogger My Reality said...

Lots of luck tomorrow, Lut! I can't wait to hear the good news!

 
At 18 October, 2007 01:32, Blogger The Dunn Family said...

good luck! Can't wait to read your birth story!

 
At 18 October, 2007 01:35, Anonymous Lori said...

Best of luck tomorrow - I have no doubt it will be an amazing day.

 
At 18 October, 2007 01:47, Blogger three minute palaver said...

delurking to say, goodluck and I'm thinking of you.

 
At 18 October, 2007 01:57, Blogger Bea said...

Wow, that seems to have come up terribly fast - from my point of view, anyway.

Good luck, and hopefully you'll be eligible for a nice dose of survivor's guilt shortly. Well, you know what I mean.

Bea

 
At 18 October, 2007 02:27, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Lut, I've been thinking of you and your big day. I can't wait to hear about your graduation to the "other side." Your whole family is my prayers tomorrow. I am so happy for you. God speed.

lucky#2

 
At 18 October, 2007 02:54, Anonymous Sassy said...

Wishing you all the best in the arrival of your Cloud Number Nine. Seriously, I hope the other side is a glorious new place to be.

 
At 18 October, 2007 04:28, Blogger ak1908 said...

Wow Lut,
I feel like I'm crossing the finish line with you. You've waited so long for this moment and it is finally here. I am soooooo happy for you. Go in peace and bring home your healthy bundle of joy!!!!

Hugs and blessings!!!!!

 
At 18 October, 2007 04:53, Anonymous orodemniades said...

Eee, good luck!!! And, um, y'know, piccy! (only the pretty ones, natch)

 
At 18 October, 2007 07:25, Blogger soralis said...

Good luck, can't wait to hear the good news!

 
At 18 October, 2007 09:27, Blogger Bumble said...

Oh my goodness, its here already! Wishing you the very best of luck with your CS and can't wait to meet your precious littly!

 
At 18 October, 2007 09:41, Blogger Sparkle said...

Can't wait to hear how everything went, good luck.

 
At 18 October, 2007 12:04, Blogger LL said...

Good Luck Lut...
I look forward to reading all about it...

 
At 18 October, 2007 15:49, Anonymous A.M.S. said...

EEEEK! I can't wait to hear all about it!

Best of luck to the three of you today.

 
At 18 October, 2007 21:27, Blogger Summer said...

Good Luck as you walk through the door!

 
At 18 October, 2007 23:26, Blogger serenity said...

Saw on Nina's blog that you are a mom! Congratulations - I was thinking of you this morning as I drove into work.

Welcome to the world, Linnea! And Congratulations to all three of you.

 
At 19 October, 2007 00:10, Anonymous Flicka said...

Just heard the news from Nina...Congratulations!! I'm so, so happy for you. Enjoy your first moments as a mommy!

 
At 19 October, 2007 01:17, Blogger Larisa said...

Hoping everything went beautifully and you are getting to know your new babe.

 
At 19 October, 2007 01:29, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Congratulations, Mommy! So glad to hear all are doing well! Can't wait to hear your story!

lucky#2

 
At 19 October, 2007 01:56, Blogger Lyrehca said...

Mazel tov!

 
At 19 October, 2007 02:35, Blogger Ladybug Ann said...

Good luck. I look forward to hearing about Insider's arrival.

 
At 19 October, 2007 05:40, Blogger Sara said...

I saw on Nina's blog that your little one has arrived safe and sound. Congratulations Mama Lut! How does it feel on the other side?

 
At 19 October, 2007 14:59, Anonymous Ms. c said...

Congrats Lut!! And welcome to the world Linnea! (What a beautiful name.)
Can't wait for you to be home and to hear all about the birth.
Take care.

 
At 19 October, 2007 18:51, Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

Congratulations on your little girl formerly known as the Insider. I am so thrilled to see you crossing to "the Other Side." It has been an absolute pleasure sharing our journey together!

Best wishes to you and your newly expanded family!

 
At 19 October, 2007 21:24, Blogger Lori said...

So happy for you, and so excited to "meet" Linnea!

Hope all went smoothly.

 
At 20 October, 2007 00:36, Anonymous PIJill said...

Oh, I clicked thru to Nina's site and saw the happy news! Congratulations! Hoping you have a speedy recovery, and loads of joy!

 
At 20 October, 2007 02:39, Blogger millie said...

Congrats!!!!! Welcome to the world, Linnea. We're so thrilled you're here. Can't wait to hear more from you, lut.

 
At 23 October, 2007 05:44, Blogger Isabel said...

Congrats, LutC! Happy for you!

 
At 24 October, 2007 22:19, Blogger Tinker said...

Congrats on Linnea's safe arrival! You've chosen a beautiful name.

 
At 24 October, 2007 23:06, Blogger M said...

Congratulations!!!!


xxx

 
At 26 October, 2007 11:54, Blogger katty said...

CONGRATULATIONS ON LINNEA, LUT. How wonderful. Now, the fun begins.
Kxxxx

 
At 10 January, 2008 17:13, Blogger Kathy V said...

I came vie the creme. That is such an interesting way to view the impending birth of your child after going through the journey. Thanks for the post.

 
At 28 January, 2008 03:26, Blogger Jen said...

What a beautiful way to express how you are feeling! Thank you for writing this.

 

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