Saturday, February 07, 2009

The sunny side (with one rain cloud)

In brief: Linnea is a delight, she just started walking yesterday.
FET: thaw failed.

I have the bad habit of blogging only when I feel bad. So today I
wanted to write a more positive post.

I'm happy. Linnea is a delightful child and being around her makes me happy.

She loves 'reading' books, especially ones that have animals in them.
What can be more fun that making mom or dad say 'squeek' every time
she points at the mouse? Or honk honk, quack quack, ... Hearing her do
a lions roar is to sweet.

For weeks now, she's been toddling along, holding on to the couch, the
coffee table or us. She'd venture out two or three steps to walk from
me to DH and back, but not much further. Then suddenly, she found the
nerve to walk and has been walking round the house since then!

We're so lucky we have her, a thought which is never far from my mind.

--

Our FET is over. Our single embryo didn't survive the thaw. I'm
disappointed, naturally, but not crushed (not by a long shot).
I'd love to start a fresh cycle straight away, but DH had a fever this
week. According to my doctor, we should wait 4 to 5 weeks. I read 3
months on a forum here or there, but I guess I'll go by what my doctor
says. Any advice?

12 Comments:

At 07 February, 2009 03:20, Anonymous Anonymous said...

So are you madly toddler-proofing everything?
I think my son is the only reason I kept my sanity through all the IVFs and miscarriages so I understand at least a little although I'm also sorry that the thaw didn't work.
Take care.
DinoD

 
At 07 February, 2009 06:51, Blogger Soralis said...

So sorry to hear about the thaw.

Good luck with your ongoing journey

 
At 07 February, 2009 13:26, Blogger Sara said...

I'm sorry that your embryo didn't make it.

Congrats about the walking, though. That's fantastic!

 
At 07 February, 2009 13:38, Anonymous orodemniades said...

Well that sucks.

But the walking? The walking is good.

 
At 07 February, 2009 16:17, Blogger My Reality said...

I am sorry about the crap thaw.

Our reproductive urologist has advised us to wait approx 3 months from any major illness, surgery or fever. It takes 72 days to make a single sperm.

But you are doing ICSI. It may not be as much of an issue. I wonder if the 4-5 weeks has something to do with where the sperm are in development and maybe the fever not affecting them?

 
At 07 February, 2009 20:48, Anonymous survivingttc said...

Aww Lut, big hugs to you about the thaw :(
Was it a 3 day embie? Blast? I am not sure.

I hope you feel OK about it. (really, the one crazy thing I've learned about IF, is that all that matters is how you are feeling and getting thru it emotionally. If you are OK, its OK).
I am excited for you that you are starting a fresh cycle and will be watching out for your posts!!
Also HUGE congrats on the walking! that is such a wonderful milestone!!! :)

You and I might still cycle around the same time after all. I haven't updated my blog yet (will try to today) but I ended up cancelling my own cycle. I'll explain on my blog when I get a chance, but basically, I chickened out. Probably a crazy first in the IF world. But I've decided to wait and do it in a few months, for many reasons.

I hope you feel better every day. And seriously, don't mind the friends with the oops pregnancies and all of that. Our journeys in a way, are so much deeper and amazing than theirs. I've come to treasure my unique experience.

HUGS!!

 
At 09 February, 2009 00:39, Blogger Aurelia said...

You know, you do get to complain if you like, anytime. Normal people do, so why can't we?

Anyway, sorry about the FET and I hope that you get to start a fresh cycle soon. Maybe they do a sperm test on the Mr. before you start and check if he is okay?

And congrats on the walking! It's crazy, but it's fun!

 
At 09 February, 2009 08:10, Blogger Bea said...

So sorry about the thaw. Glad you're weathering it ok. Advice - I would believe my doctor over an internet forum, on the other hand, it can't hurt to wait longer if that would make you feel more confident.

Walking! I hope Linnea is very pleased with herself about that!

Bea

 
At 09 February, 2009 17:09, Blogger Larisa said...

I'm so sorry about your embryo.

Congrats on Linnea walking! Exciting stuff!

 
At 09 February, 2009 17:34, Blogger serenity said...

Aw, Linnea walking! Fantastic!

I'm sorry about the thaw results.

I'm with Bea - I'd go by my doctor's instructions unless I was more comfortable waiting longer. But I think My Reality's right - if you are doing ICSI, then it doesn't matter *all* that much - they just need to get a few of the good ones.

 
At 09 February, 2009 17:51, Blogger Hopeful Mother said...

Linnea sounds like a dream. It's wonderful that you can embrace how great she is in your life.

I'm sorry about the thaw failing. It's kind of "strange" how in an FET, BAM, it didn't survive the thaw, and it's just over. Not that it makes it easier, AT ALL, but I guess another sunny side is that if it wasn't going to work, you'd rather know that right away and move onward.

Anyway, I'm hoping that you can start your next cycle soon (not sure about the how long to wait question?) and OF COURSE that the future result is similar to your gorgeous Linnea.

 
At 09 February, 2009 18:48, Blogger beagle said...

Congrats to the little walker!
I'm sorry about your lost embryo.
I will keep fingers crossed for your fresh cycle.

 

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